complex simplicity

Sorry!

2010-01-26T11:30:00.000-08:00

Ok soooo here's the deal.
I'm going to the Grammy's. Very excited about all the networking possibilities and all the partying that will go down. I'll try to be on my photovideo grind so I can report play by plays to you all. :)

The goal is by June to have some semblence of this project completed and then you wont have to wonder about what all this ambiguous musical 'stuff' im talking about is.
I promise, I'll think its good lol sooo hopefully you will hear the sweat blood and tears (aka time) I put into it. Until then... here is rock kong and myself struggling in the studio... lol

p.s. my blog has moved to Fritzwa.blogspot.com :)

Just when I wanted to b all pouty...

2008-04-18T06:45:00.001-07:00

God was like... lets be serious. lol I went from being extremely low to INCREADIBLY happy in 2 days. I graduated!!! ... well from business class. lol it was a classy affair held at Columbias law school. I was killin em if I do say so myself. We basically took over harlem lanes after the ceremony and lost our minds. Mr smooth was lurking lmao... Trav, ur a BLAZING MESS. G diddy and Errol got that check. Dennyz becamy my church goin patna! Dominique and I got knighted Alumni Chairs ... wooohooo. AAAAAAND i got home mad late lol. Im tired. I gotta take Marquis out to celebrate his top 6 tommorow and I must take out my braids tonight... Its 70 degrees btw. Thank you Lord for that!

Today is a good day.... I feel blessed, happy, loved, cheezy!!!!!

Im at work, wishin I was outside. Its fine tho, itll make actually goin out there even better. Shouts 2 Mcgill 4 keeping me inspired and motivated on chat and to McClendon for schooling me in the bloomberg game while making me fall out in my chair because of the camera attached to his screen! lol... and to Gourgue for listening to my plans of world domination and agreeing with me! Me and U fatty ... Oprah.

Blessed... and highly favored !!!!

Love Yall,

Fritsle

2008-04-15T08:46:00.000-07:00

The roots! got them on board to wear the clothing line... thats great isnt it. Dennyz and Errol/G won the incubator! Good 4 them... I told them I wanted my ten percent like tommorow.

Short one got a job finally! whew. She is creating the blog for the new york dept of tourism. YAY.. now she gets paid to b a blabber lol.

We got a flat tire yesterday.. positive.. learned how to change a tire lol.

Discovered apple cinnamon tea... v. soothing

..yea

2008-04-14T21:58:00.000-07:00

I'm sad today. SOmetimes ppl need those days. So... y am i all pouty and negative, well.. because I'm beginning to feel like my thoughtfulness is a bad thing. I dunno, I guess I'm just really sensitive and expect ppl to care as much as I do about them, about me. Wow that sounded like and extra hearty dose of corny, but its true. Sometimes, I really wanna stop reaching out, being there, and breaking my back and doing crazy thoughtful things all the time but something inside me wont let me. It sux, and it makes me sad sometimes dagnabit.

The most amazing thing someone can do for me is something unexpected and thoughtful... like remember something small and act on it. ( 4 instance i f i say... iaww i had that same lanyard bracelet when i was 4 but it got burnt in a fire and someone sees it on the way home and picks it up just 4 me... thats better than a new car to me!.. dead serious, that feeling is better than a car.) I try to do things like that 4 ppl all the time, but I dunno, I feel like I dont get it? Great... now i feel selfish lol. Is that selfish? It might b...sorry...

Another reason why im wallowing is because I think my whole, I see the best in ppl rule is turning out to be a crock of shi*. In a matter of 48 hours I''ve lost so much trust in someone I cared about so much... Alone, crushed all that negative dramatic shit... thats how i feel.

Andddddddd lastly... i recently discovered how ashamed I am of crying. Yea... today is one of THOSE days.

2008-04-13T23:06:00.000-07:00

I've always thought myself to b a great judge of haracter... BUT I was duped as of late... Good thing i caught it when i did. I try not to get involved with other ppls relationships unless im dragged in...be it friedndships or otherwise but I really CANT STAND my friends sig. other ...like CANT STAND.. This individual just seems so mean spirited, jealous and evilsih to me aand my friend is just...not. Do I tell my friend? ( question of the day young readers) Ok, just had 2 put that out there. In other news.....

MLRSO... my clothes debuted in it ...yay! Ray and Amma did a great job hostiing, but the crowd was on some sort of depressant cuz they werent hypped at all.. :(.. My weekend as a whole was great, I got to see sooo many ppl i missed so much. Cornell feels different tho... its not communal anymore. Everyones dispersed and doing their own thing. Like theres no central meeting place. Booooo.

Nike was a great host... she even opened her house up for an impromptu party that was clearly my idea cuz im mad random like that. Did the whole brunch thing at RPCC. Went to two lackluster house parties, played ball. Visited everyone (ergo I bounced all around ithaca because noone wants to live together anymore), watched keeping up with the Kardashians... good family lol, went to Greak Freak... ehhh, sold mad clothes, went the HSA banquet... food was good, danced a bit, hit up the Baracka concert... .those ladies can sing, made some freshman friendsand harassed a few teachers.

Good weekend, now back to my exhilirating job (can u feeel the sarcasm). Laters :-)

um iim continuing this post tom cuz im fallin asleep

p.s. the other gender is remedial and have no excuses for the poor choices they make... REMEDIAL. Defend yourselves... i dare you. Keziah will agree men are remedial ( cept for my daddy and Jesus .. and ur daddy too :-) ) and use 1/100000 of their brains when making life CHOICES... can u telll im just a tad bit irked.. just a tad ... sigh

annnnnd we're back

2008-04-02T09:32:00.000-07:00

Hello there,

Havent spoken to you all in a minute... not that anyone reads this or anything but... who cares.. i know uve been on the edge of ur seats for 3 months... just waitin.

Well quick update on the life. Business program... aka... blessing from the heavens, is almost over. Final presentations are this weekend, so wish me luck and pray for me :-) Thank you God for introducing me to Travis, Jessica, Errol, Khomari, Adeniyi, Greg, Dave, Jamal, Angela, Winter, Keoka, Marquis, Marcus, Margaret, Chester, Dominique, Khouri, Charise, Christina, Georgiana, Karif Janessa, Keyondra, ALL OF YOU BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE... you've all been an inspiration and blessing to me, and we're going to TAKE OVER THE WORLD... ok.. we can start with the U.S first and then break international bounds.

I filed my taxes wrong ( dag nabit) :-(

Had the photoshoot for the line... It was fun, despite the freezing cold.

Im a new writer/ reporter for singersroom.com check it out... its pretty great. I get to chill with celebs and pry into their lives.

Um... yes...I currently have a 101 fever, and it seems like its rising as i type so im going to stop now lol. But ill b back soon :-)

<3 Fritsle

Fatigue can be good

2007-12-17T12:38:00.000-08:00

Ok so have you ever seen a defensive end intercept a pass at the 10 yard line and have to run all the way to the other side of the field while ppl block for him... you know like really big overweight guys who have to run 90 yards! Once they've scored the touchdown, the straight up collapse. Well, thats how I feel.

I just got back from miami. The trip was anything but restful. Partied every night, shopped, ate, met a couple of famous folk... beached... found myself getting on the plane home.... DRAINED and having to work the next morning. So here I am, drinking redbull and watching the clock tick. After this I gotta go to my class, and after that to edit footage into the night. Hopefully get 4 hours and do it all again until friday. After which I will be on a plane to Ghana in the hopes that once I get there... I can finally sleep :-)

But like i said... fatigue can be good, because God strengthens me so I can get what I need to do, done and gives me support through ppl around me. I'm tired but o so happy in every way.

2007-11-02T14:07:00.001-07:00

God is a beautiful being who has made it clear to me that I am loved and to be used by him to affect people. God has made that clear to me these last couple of weeks and its great because I honestly believe that my lifes goals coincide with the Goals God has for me. We'll see :) This business entrepreneurship program has some blessed people in it, some innovative, gifted and talented beautiful young people with fire under their feet and it is SO refreshing. We've only had 3 sessions so far but I'm so glad to be apart of it. If all these peoples ideas come to fruition, America is about to have a problem because to be young gifted black educated philanthropic and ballerific might mess up the 'natural order' of things... O well :)

In other news, I am a living representative of the fact that good things come to those who wait. I swore I wasn't going to make this blog about my relationships and I guess it is holding true as I am not in one. In truth, nothing feels better than truly getting over someone. Truly being free of whatever it is that was a blessing and a burden that drew you to them in the first place. It might take space, cut off communication, yoga wutever but like lil brother say "MAN got dag this feelin is superb". I like the space im oriented now with my good friend lol. I guess my good friend is about as close to me ( personality wise) as a male can get and it scares me, but I'm gonna stay in my oriented space and if G up there sees fit, we'll see lol.

Im a bit hesitant to post up my songs to this blog cuz well.. theyre dam good and ppl will steal them lol. But my new favorite Jazz piano teacher Bert is gonna help me out with that. This guy has put out albums and has introduced me to a whole new type of vocabulary. Apparently I'm a slick soul with a funky mold. lmao... bert is my 70 year old jazz piano instructor who is the next best thing since sliced bread. Only thing he has working against him is his dagum cat...hate that thing.

Well thats my update folks... holler at me :)

2007-10-10T09:58:00.000-07:00

If I wrote about what I wanted to write about today... i don't know how you'd all feel. So i'll refrain, but if ur at all interested, call me and i'll share, granted i trust u enough :)

I feel amazing today. Just plump with joy. Busting at the seams u could say. I feel like i could find inspiration in a toothpick with little or no effort. Just LIBERATED FREE AND BLESSED!I've never felt this high before, 20/20 vision, airy.. man i could really go on for ever.

I feel so good that I really can' t stand to sit here much longer because being sedentary really doesnt coincide with my joy... i'm going to go talk to random ppl in the office.

love. always.

Fritsle :)

Hidden Track

2007-10-01T20:07:00.000-07:00

A hidden track is like summer through the eyes of an eight year old.
Like eating ice cream from the bottom of the cone
And when you feel like you've made that airy blue heat your home, your comfort zone
A lemon surpise springs and leaves a satisfying sting in your eyes.

The sweet citrus redolence lingers , settles and
makes my happy a little more happy, my curles a little more nappy and my hip swaying, finger snappin tenor just a pinch more raspy
and I am glad, that the artist blessed me

and left me
with a b r e a k
d
o
w
n in my beat

I am Glad,
Glad that the artist had my back.
and left me
with a hidden track.

Chivalry is DEAD

2007-09-14T10:22:00.000-07:00

It doesnt take much to inspire me to start something...
It take something special to inspire me to finish it. Though i'm finding that inspiration isnt subject to being associated with positive things. Dont worry... that should make sense after I tell u my story. I'm sorry.... Hi how's ur day been so far? Good?.... good. Where r my manners. Anywho, back to what i was saying. Last weekend I went with Nike, her boyfriend and her boyfriends crew to the 40 40 club.

I was wearing a peasant skirt, tank top flats and had a blown out afro ponytail. Berry Berry Bohemian. I did this on purpose hoping that my attire would have some effect on everyones psyche and prompt them to go to a lounge... I lost out. So we walk in the club and i figure, i look like a portuguese tourist, I shouldnt get harassed too much tonight. Plus sometimes girls just wanna enjoy music and do the solo step. To no avail...

15 minutes in the club, a sweaty unidentifiable man grabs my hips and attempts to dance with me, from behind me while whispering 'u smell sweet' in my ear. After unlatching his hands and gagging a little bit, I leaned on the wall so as to prevent anymore sneak attacks from behind me. Soon the began to play ''my boo' by ghost town djs... one of the nostalgia joints. So i close my eyes and do my solo step... content as i could be, until i felt my wrist being grabbed and by a man who looked like a mix between eric bennet and tpain. Needless to say this went on the rest of the evening. There used to be a time where I didnt question it, but i guess i've grown up. I can't remember the last time someone asked me to dance at a club. I guess men just let proximity be their guide...like "if i get close enough and she touch her...shell know wassup".

Nxt day I get on the bus to go to harlem to do my weekly support harlem store tour ( my own personal ventures around harlem to see what businesses are going up and coming down) It was packed. There were 3 elderly women and 2 pregnant ladies standing while the entire front half of the bus was filled with seated young black men. It really made no sense to me. I dunno, am I being unreasonable? What do u think... I just feel like women, especially black women have been reduced to pawns that move like queens. They can traverse the board more than one space at a time but are sooo vulnerable to knights and bishops... Digest, I think in pictures.

But wait... its not over. So im at a good friends housewarming party with one of my best friends that same weekend. We leave around 1AM only to find a 14-15 year old girl getting the shi* beat out of her by her clearly older boyfriend. But get this...the cops were on the nxt corner. They look over, saw the ordeal and proceeded down the stairs to the train station.

I mean I could go on but u feel me. Finding a gentlemen that holds open doors, walks on the edge of the sidewalk, pulls out ur chair and gives up his... well thats like finding a woman who wasnt the least bit concerned about her weight. Degredation has been institutionalized so much so that most ladies dont even realize they are being degraded. I mean uve all heard this b4 but... my wknd was just packed with shi* that i had to write it down.

I was inspired though, to write a song called Chivalry is Dead. Its not on that india arie, teach u a lesson while soothing ur soul type tip, it a club joint. I figure if it blows up, I can see how cognescent ppl really are of the music they listen to. How do u feel about it?

My second cousin.

2007-09-13T08:53:00.000-07:00

One thing i've learned about most of my colleagues here at the job is that they've let 'Passion' their second cousin meander off into the sunset. They let their siblings 'status' and 'quo' lay EACH AND EV-E-RY single brick on their yellow brick road. Dont get me wrong... immediate fam, technically, should be your guide but dont you find that they restrict your growth in the effort of protecting you sometimes? Man my radical second cousin, passion, hes that dude. He's got earrings, tattoos, a man purse (lol) and the greatest part is hes happy. I talk to some of my colleagues & supervisors and with every conversation i see a faint brush of 'Passions' spray paint imprint on the road. Its been scrubbed down, bleached and lysoled... but u know graffitti... u can only really get rid of it if u paint over it ya know?

So my colleagues and supervisors... they tell me about all the opportunities here, basically handing me the yellow paint to go ahead and paint my bricks, which btw is as multicolored as Josephs coat . One thing i notice is that with every conversation theres one radical similarity...'I wish'. They've all used that pronoun and verb in THAT order in every one on one meeting i've had. But its followed by "inevitably this was were I ended up, and i like it now" or some variation of it. I feel like everyone in my department ENDED UP here, excommunicated their 2nd cousin and only think about him when they r influencing someone who has the chance to still kick it with their own cuzo.

My yellow brick road will never be yellow. I'm like tyrell in vegas, I told 'Passion', to hold the key to my soul , so I wouldnt gamble it away. Unlike Justin and Adam, Passion doesnt give me back my earnings cuz I beg 4 it... he knows better.. i might gamble it away and start painting my road with the brush my colleagues used.

I just confirmed the factory for Afrik's clothing in SHANGHAI! Found the spot im gonna put a down payment on in January. Recording a demo (and hanging out with ?uestlove 1 thursday a month- word... no joke), and go to local shows, perform poetry and hit up lounges on wkdays... got approved to be a mentor AND volunteer at the Harlem childrens zone. Paving my gaudy a$$ road every single day and loving it.

Consult Passion once a week... please ... thanks